depressed

So today I was a the gym for 2 hours and then I came home and had this extremely high feeling of depression, I started to cry. Being lonely is awful.

june 25, thursday

Today I woke up and went to exercise with a friend and I met someone. I woke up around 7:45 and was exercising by 8:00, got home around 10:00, then I started watching The Big Bang Theory. Then I got my hair cut around 1:30 and it took about 15 minutes. Then I kept on watching The Big Bang Theory til about 4:30 and I left for the gym; I was working out for about an hour and a half, and got home around 6:45. Then I kept on watching The Big Bang Theory and that's my lonely day. Thinking about tomorrow will be worse, because I will probably wake up around 8 and do nothing but go to the gym for the same amount of time. So depressing...

my ruined monday, june 22

So I had plans to hang out with a few people, but it just so happens that they all cancelled at the last minute because they had 'other' plans. So anyways, one of them said we'll go today and I agreed. Guess whats worse... This morning, I called that certain person and funny thing, another last minute cancellation. In fact, not only did this person cancel but I had to call to find out. I think this is why I am the way I am. So depressing...

Saturday, June 20

Today I woke up at 8:20 and got my iPod touch out and logged onto the SAS forums for 15 minutes to check the new posts. Then I put away my ipod and continued to lay in bed for another 10 minutes and then got up and immediately turned on my laptop; checked my email briefly and then began to watch How I Met Your Mother starting from Season 1. I realized that I was hungry so I got breakfast and came back to watch while eating. Well I went to the gym for 2 hours today, maybe a bit more, but I lost track of time. I worked out on my chest a bit and played basketball for the rest of the time there. When I came home I continued watching How I Met Your Mother, but I am now on season 2. Off to sleep...ZzZ...

p.s. another day without a phone call from anyone at all

Friday, June 19

Here's a little about me: I just finished my freshmen year at college and I love playing basketball and lifting weights. During high school I played varsity basketball for four years and even though the athletes were considered 'popular' I didn't have any friends and I really didn't do anything on the weekends. So when I went to college I thought I would make friends, but I was wrong and didn't so now I have summer vacation and I'm all alone and depressed.


I woke up this morning at 8:30 and turned on my laptop immediately to check my email and my facebook page. Nothing new on either. Then I went to eat breakfast and returned to my laptop and popped in a DVD of Season 1 of Two and a Half Men and watched 3 episodes. By the time I finished it was 10 in the morning, and I made myself a sandwich. Then I went on YouTube and browsed for street fights; watched lots of clips for about an hour. Then I was on the SAS forums for another half an hour. I went downstairs to make myself something to eat again, so I made an omelet with beans and corn, and a few pieces of toast. Then I went upstairs to listen to music on my iPod for a few minutes, but my depression was killing me, so I went back downstairs and turned on the TV to watch CSI for about an hour and a half. Then I went to make myself yet another sandwich and right afterwards I went to the gym for two hours and I came back, ate another meal, and took a nap. Got up, made myself yet another meal and I returned to watching Two and a Half Men while checking the SAS forums and logged onto my facebook page. Throughout the day, the only phone call was from my dad.